Friday was a busy and exhausting day. i spent almost 6 hours with a client at NYU and then raced back to go straight into shabbos. Thanks to my wonderful housekeeper and my great husband, everything was pretty much ready. All I had to do was put up the food, shower and light candles.
We had 8 guests that night. I have to say it was a bit overwhelming to go straight from supporting a client in labor to caring for my kids and serving a big meal to guests. It strikes me as ironic that I am the primary caregiver for my children and have chosen a profession in which I am also the caregiver, although of a different nature. The contrast was heightened because that day I was coming from this intense experience and really just wanted to unwind and relax. Yet as soon as I walked in the door there were three kids who needed me, not to mention all the shabbos thing that needed to get done.
I am still learning to navigate and balance the different aspects of my life. But I would not want to give up the doula dimension. I have been at three births this past month and it feels intensely gratifying to help women in such a significant way. It is also really addictive... am already actively looking for my next client :)